nothing's gonna change my world

高中密西根大學電機系碩士的強女孩偉玲給我的樊谷先生卡片。
我想了很久，我能做的什麼都沒有。
那也只能keep walking，把之前選擇好的道路先好好專心走完，而不是不專心蹲下來看路邊的青蛙。
無奈的是，在我不斷告訴自己專心致志的同時，我的無窮想像力駕著我的脖子，幾乎要我殺死。
所以，能不能生存? 還真是個問題。

Yes, this is how the globe has altered.
Or we may say this is how we human beings have changed the globe.
for more detail, please visit  http://www.uip.com.tw/ait/  

 
這是我指考那段日子，
毎天貼在k書中心牆上的倒數紙條，
而倒數10天則是在洪筱涵家努力奮戰。
重新翻到有一股暖心的感覺，

 
在我這個年代，
每個少女都該瘋凱西!!
沒有凱西就沒有青春期，這是絕對的!
從國中開始的白上衣‧藍短褲系列，

(點相片可以看放大版諾 :D)
 
高中怎麼這麼好玩!
這個週末回家，
一時心血來潮把放滿寶物的鞋盒們統統拿出來大review，

(姚安 U of I 波士得卡)
大學生活就要結束了
越來越能感受到時間推著人走的力量
或者只是自己本身越來越脆弱

為了把躺在宿舍裡許久的義大利麵醬罐頭(500g)清掉所以誕生了這鍋湯。
1. 洋蔥1顆 番茄1顆半 紅羅蔔2小條 青椒1大個 全部切小丁丟進滾水 稍微讓他滾兩下
    (如有高湯或高湯塊比清水佳)
    (可先用奶油加洋蔥及培根碎或絞肉等爆香後再加水煮)

愚人節開心嗎?
我不。 
你呢？

一開始是看friends開這首歌玩笑
我就想回味一下這首老歌
於是youtube了他

第40頁:
        因為我是──或說我以前是──那種對自己的意志力引以為傲的人，能
夠作出抉擇而且貫徹到底。這項美德，跟其他大部分的美德一樣，本身就是
一個模稜兩可的東西。相信自己意志堅強、有能力掌握自己的命運的人，只
有成為一個自欺的專家才能繼續相信下去。他們的抉擇根本不是真正的抉擇
──真正的抉擇讓人謙恭，因為他知道事情受到許多無可名狀的事物支配─
─而是一套精巧的逃避機制，都是幻覺，用意是為了讓自己跟整個世界改頭
換面。
我想我會喜歡這本書，才看到第40頁就讓我迫不及待的想引述。
這句話讓我在無法睡眠的半夜征了半天，因為覺得很ashamed
可惜剛剛goole了一下還是找不到原文。
恩，好久不見，就是這樣，把喬凡尼的房間介紹給你，一些tapette的故事。
不過這不是法國人寫的，是個美國哈林區作家，只是故事背景在巴黎，所以
不停的有法文出現，醜惡的或美麗的。

Global Warming
  We human beings are heating up our planet more than ever, and the outcomes of global warming have already affected our environments. Greenhouse gases in the atmosphere, such as carbon dioxides, help to keep our globe in a warm and congenial temperature for lives. However, our planet is now getting too warm due to overly human developments. By burning fossil fuels and clearing forests, we have produced excess amount of greenhouse gases that violates the environments unnaturally. While doing my research on this topic, it is amazing to discover that, in recent five years, at least 200 cities such as London, Taipei, and Shanghai have broken their hottest temperature records which have held for 10 to hundred years. That is, the global warming is happening, and it is indeed altering our environments. It has brought us unexpected effects to our climates, dramatic changes to our terrain features, and unrecoverable damages to our ecosystems.
  First, rising temperature has not only brought us a warmer atmosphere, but also made our climate system run wild. Extreme weathers such as hot winters, early spring arrivals, tsunamis, heat waves, storms, heavy precipitations and droughts happen more frequently and more intense, and these are all considered to be related to global warming. For example, the number of heavy hurricanes has almost doubled in the last 30 years. (Emanuel, 2005) What’s more, people are now easily to compare that the temperatures are higher than before. This winter, we can find that most people in Taiwan still wear t-shirts and that only few cold currents visit our island. The winter comes later and many ski resorts in Europe are forced to close or use snowmakers because there are no enough snows for the visitors to ski. Sure, we can not link any particular climate event directly to global warming; however, it is undeniable that global warming is playing a really important role that triggers unusual climate patterns.
  Next, in response to global warming, our terrain features, especially in the Polar Regions, alter sharply in comparison with the past few decades. Global warming accelerates ices near poles or in high mountains to melt. Last Friday, a huge chunk of ice bigger than the size of Manhattan broke from the ice shelf in Canada, which has been regarded as the biggest broke in recent 25 years. The same group of scientists also pointed out that the size of ice shelves in this region was ten times smaller than it used to be in 1906. (Jones, 2006) Global warming, once again, is one of the major causes. Researchers also discover the ice cap of Mount Kilimanjaro, the highest mountain in Africa, has shrunken 75% since 1972, and might disappear in 15 years. (TIME, 2001) If we cannot find a solution to this heating situation, our Arctic Ocean could be ice free in summer by 2050 (Adams, 2006). Moreover, the sea level is also responding the melting ice near the poles- it raises and submerges lands near coastlines. A group of scientists have proved that two India islands, Lohachara and Suparibhanga, have been swallowed up by the sea, making 10000 people homeless. (AFP, 2006) According to a documentary film called “The Inconvenient Truth,” the sea level would rise up to 6 meters as the ice keep melting; meanwhile, places near seacoast including Shanghai, Florida, Venice, Taiwan would soon be overwhelmed. A sequence of catastrophes could be predicted, and our terrain features will be totally different due to global warming.

 

呼
再次複習惹一遍
國中時候的我果然一定看不懂
我僅依稀記得 跳著舞的塑膠袋 玫瑰花 同性戀爸爸 然後沒了
並且那時候跟媽媽一起租片子看的
看到作愛的畫面都緊張死了
想說媽媽就在旁邊....
(我對這部片限制級部分只有印象有做愛畫面
 完全不記的凱文史貝西有打槍 看我多麼單純! 都看不懂 ㄎㄎ)
                                                                               
anyway,
雖然爆點已經不是爆點
不過我發現原來這麼多讓人深思的東西在裡面
我欣賞凱文史貝西豁出去nothing to lose理直氣壯到甚至惡劣的態度
我希望我也能夠這麼無所畏懼
然而 我卻只是卡洛琳
遵守所謂的成功人士守則 不敢打破規定 用社會價值不斷催眠自己
或者我只是安琪拉
活在只想要讓別人覺得自己不一樣的狹窄圈圈 然而其實平凡得就像自己想逃避的一樣
所以看完以後我還是很厭惡自己
我什麼都不是 卻總是自以為是
                                                                               
最後一個畫面
凱文史貝西到在桌上 死了並且笑著
血泊上 映著瑞奇和他自己的身影
很讓我印象深刻
                                                                               
兩個字來形容我現在的感覺 可悲 英文是pathetic
                                                                               
當然還是有可直得慶賀的生命的一些美在這片子裡
不過我現在無法欣賞